like it’s the Indy 500,

banks right onto Ainsworth

like it’s going somewhere

as if there is anywhere to go.

My wife says stop being so dark

and I say darkness

and I say sweetness

and I say slow down

but the Fed Ex truck is doing 90 down South

then coming back with a busted muffler to introduce itself.

The packages rattle and fall off the back of the truck

like the children fall off the back of the truck.

I saw a black one and a Chinese one and a Jewish one and a Muslim one, bounce.

They were all bouncing,

like my daughter’s Technicolor ball she got at Walmart to get her anger out.

Everyone is angry and I sit here and watch the children collide off of parked cars,

bouncing, my daughter bouncing,

and I just sit here. All day long I sit here.

The Fed Ex driver is my friend, Ed, and I say Ed, slow down.

I am trying to toss him a bottle of cold water.

It’s so hot the tires on his truck melt. He’s doing 75 up Bradford on rims

and the sparks are flying, ricocheting off the church steps and the clouds.

It’s the 4th of July.

It’s the 4th day of the year.

It’s the 4-month of the lock down.

We’re all pissed off and my wife says,

stop sitting around and do something.

So, I bounce off my porch and run down the street

dodging the Fed Ex truck to retrieve the children.

I can’t retrieve the children.

They are half way into their own.

Their ownness.

I have tried so long to keep people safe by being kind.

Ed, on the 6th trip up this street, finally catches the iced cold 12 oz. Poland Spring,

blows me a kiss and more kids fall off the truck.

The short one and fat one and purple one and monster one and the one with pretty toenails and the smart one who knows math.

Maybe they’ll figure out the algorithm to slow everything down, the anger, the lockdown,

the kind of meanness I thought didn’t exist

till I saw my kid bounce her ball so hard

it hit the top of a mountain and, swear to God, knocked off all the snow.