How write about oil without writing about

disease? The CT scan after ingesting

the liquid luminescent, the two colonoscopies,

the first commencing before I was fully

under, the second followed by a strawberry

milkshake and the deepest midday nap

of my life, the take-home fecal tests

that came back negative, negative a positive

but not an answer, the inconclusive doctor

visits, the theories, the diagnoses, stress,

IBS, IDK, the changes of diet, grain-free,

dairy-free, not free, expensive, the fear I had,

the certainty I had the colon cancer killing

my mother, the realization the body, too, can grieve.