Note: this spell may not be for everyone. Improper use of this spell may have serious side effects including increased anguish and death by hypothermia. Please consult your healer before beginning this, or any spell.

 
Start with what’s tangible, visible, audible. A junco in the garden birdbath, wet wings and spray. Calendula and nasturtiums that seeded themselves into the waste ground.

Then go on from there, alternating wonders and horrors. Take the bodies of yellowjackets piled by the hundreds, the bee dancing for pollen in the wild rose. Add the monstrous bald-faced hornets that threaten you every time you step outside and the calliope hummingbird’s zings and burrs as he plunges and rises in display.

Layer the tangle of the native plant garden you’ve abandoned to the winged creatures, the inviolable green press of larch, dogwood, birch, fireweed, goldenrod, and aster.

Add the red flag warning, the heavy particulate of the smoke-filled skies, the hot wind of drought, the sting of disaster.

Only use a single strand of intention—its helical nature would cause a double thread to loop back on itself and create knots of chaos.

Moisten just enough to keep it together. Use water from the tap, tinged with per- and polyfluoroalkyl substances, lead, and nitrates. If it gets too salty with tears, add more wonder, the chatter of waxwings as they glean the saskatoon, the four-leaf clover with delicate patterns, the warmth of a dog pressed against you at dawn.

Do not use hyperobjects, only what you can see here and now, avoiding temporal and geographic abstractions such as ecological collapse, mass extinction, melting of the ice caps, disruptions in the troposphere, and other less tangible horrors.

When you’ve layered enough wonders and horrors to fill your consciousness to bursting, study the seams. If there are any gaps, fill the interstitial space with memory, using past trauma for horrors and elations for wonders.

Then find a body of water to immerse yourself in. Remember how you started, with granite ground into your bones, calcium apatite training upwards.

Breathe.

See the body as apart in appearance yet not energy, the body as symmetry, empathy, tepals and tercets, all the lashed facets and forgotten flow.

When the sedges spin the soil to stop and obstacles flick away, hummingbird wings will whisper, pause, and drag anguish through ecstasy until all is erased, sated, and finally, unraveled into fluidity. Repeat as needed.