Afiya
Wanna know what I’ll remember most?
Keesha
Tell me.
Afiya
Me and you in the bright yellow summertime. Dancing at that old Dole factory. The noise, like it is now, sirens cracking against the night like a breakbeat. Our footfalls rushing against the pavement will always be my favorite 90s slow jam.
Keesha
I’ll remember the blues. The color and the music. Feeling so good moving in the hot sweaty dark of it. Mama working late, and me, you, and the girls, covered by the light of the stars, hearts thump-thump-thumping with the rhythm. Our pulses ricocheting like some of my daddy’s swing-time jazz.
Afiya
I’ll remember feeling alive and knowing it. Running with Eddie Boy and yelling fuck the police and meaning it. I wanted to be unforgettable, unthinkable. Poor and black and girl and completely impossible. You get me?
Keesha
Sis, I get you.
Afiya
What do you still believe in?
Keesha
You and me and the spinning world.
Afiya
You know, I’ve been dream-walking lately. Lost in other people’s dreams, I feel like a puzzle, my oldest pieces gone missing. I think I’ve been stolen again, or maybe I’m just losing myself. You used to say we look like diamonds on a dark sea floor. But I think we look more like coal in a mountaintop. Or maybe we are actually the canaries in the mines, dropping mid-flight to the ground. Maybe they sent us in first to die.
Keesha
How does it make you feel?
Afiya
Like my breath can’t reach my lungs. Like I’m forgetting how to breathe in the dark. Like I can’t remember the taste of the rain.
Keesha
They say obsidian is just the universe caught in volcanic rock.
Afiya
And what’s caught in the dim blue wound of my chest?
Keesha
All the things we’ve ever longed for.
Afiya
The thing I loved most was the curl of your hair during the summer. The way the heat unlocked the forbidden kinks. How I wrapped your braids around your head like a crown.
Keesha
I was the lost princess.
Afiya
And these are the fairy tales we’ll one day write on our lovers’ backs. We were here, we were real, we existed.
Keesha
Maybe all myths are real.
Afiya
Is that what we’ll say to our daughters when we tell them to close their eyes?
Keesha
We tell them Malcolm and Martin were preaching the same thing by the end.
Afiya
We tell them we are the cursed beasts in the heart of the dark. Please don’t fear us.
Keesha
Our alabaster teeth. Our obsidian skin.
Afiya
We who walked the streets before the sun ever rose.
Keesha
We’re the stories this city will never tell.
Keesha
Hey sis, can you taste it?
Afiya
What? The music? The night air?
Keesha
The rain.