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to hold him, the infant boy, my arms in that cloudless sky
over Ruby Lake, but you know all this, how life looks
towards the farther end of the journey.
Once in a while, into the moment,
a line from the origin
reaches clear through us. I felt it almost,
passing through the young mother,
her arms, her voice
in the seat beside me,
as she shifted her infant,
he was bliss-faced, I could see,
from her right breast
to her left breast, she nursed him
in flight, all the way through—
a whisper, the line, a contrail
crossing a desert sky.
Where are they taking them?
Where on the dark flights
across the continent,
herded through the deserted terminals
are they taking the children?
To cages on the border?
My whole life you taught me
to wage peace.
Be the prince of owls,
hear the hidden thing.
Attend the deepening.
How can I help it
when feathers spread
from my shoulders? Talons
spring from my fingertips?
In a brightly illuminated,
soundproof room, mirrors
covering the walls,
every instant he looks,
he turns back into,
sees only himself,
the President, fixed
in infinite regress.
Barely space inside
In the internment camp
tent city cages on the border,
under guard, harsh arc lights,
children locked like dogs
in the desert. And it doesn’t
stop there, the apparatus
operates everywhere, operates in us:
put your shoes on the conveyer,
empty your pockets,
spread your legs.
I look at the moon out the window,
breathe the free air.
Two mosquitos watch me
watch two towering
Jeffrey pine trees turn to
ink, swooping forms—
Chinese scroll painting
tall as twelve houses.
The pollen they spread
lands like a coating,
bitter, potent, solstice flour
dusting the open sill.
The baby, sleeping, pressed to his mother’s heart.
It’s not that they do or do not have names:
maybe stars exist
to create, for all of us, for anyone,
the possibility of naming.
Maybe that’s how
the light gets through.
Already, the three boys,
I wonder, can you see them?
Passing the moon on the skyroad
heading towards the forest?
The older, taller one walks farther away.
The younger two, bright, small, stop, turn.
Catch from the edge
of the blade the gleam
of the knife I test with my finger.
he buried a wish, a bird with feathers black and brown.
Down it fluttered, or escaped. Like a window opening,
climbing through itself out of this locked town.
West of the rudbeckia beds a pink full moon drifted.
Descending its arc, picking orders for the shut-ins.
The wake of its route like a burst of high-def pictures
rang when the bird opened like a pink velvet purse, poured out
its silver clatter, its skeletal kite with tail tied of loops
like sharp earrings on fish string that rounded the wish
and loosened it again, a silence sinking
the blue lassos of cardinal flowers. He gave himself up.
The moon burned like tallow. Above the prairie, like static
in the clouds, a mask of forgiveness wore his heart.
His love was about the weight of a mouse nest.
Something vernal, something infernal had bitten the neck
of the doe and run away, another’s voice in its mouth, blood in its teeth.
When the fox cried, thunder pounded through the door.
The line hummed where the grass lay flattened,
bent by runoff gone from the rain ditch: tracks
through a fairy tale about the soul. At the bird feeder, the bird
with brown feathers and no name. Above the stump
where evening settled, the morning sun felt warm.
He gaveled the last cinders from the cellar of his burnt heart.
Others will find where the promise rests. In the temple
the smoke disperses, the sacrifices, caged or tied, all let go.
In the shed, high in the eaves, a colony of paper wasps
enclosing a future, pasting lives into rounds of sealed cells.
He bends, translating the fennel. With every turn of breath,
another alterity lost. Behind him, the rising daylight
painting it eggshell blue, a house he once thought he lived in
floats in the air.
Any given night, after hours of not sleeping or worse slipping in and out of quarantine anxiety dreams I go out sometimes and lie down with them in the animal night, I think you will understand if I am pretending then to become a figure of varied stars and ages and brightnesses asleep in the heavens revolving on the pinhole the Pole Star makes. You’ll have to look closer than that to find it, it doesn’t shout. The center doesn’t clear Lafayette Square with tear gas and batons then walk to the door of St. John’s Church to pose with a Bible upside down in its right hand. The President is going to kill my wife if I don’t end him first. Every night and every morning I pray his sclerotic heart blacks out, pray his Adderall addiction kicks him, and for the suffocating virus to descend again. And when I’m done praying, back down I retrace the footprints I left as I stepped off the roof beseeching the heavens for all of these things, and whisper to my darkness a promise, how gladly I will eat the President’s liver in hell, but then I just lie down instead, on a pile of blankets with the dogs, and together we listen to the great invisible wings in the top of the chimney make a thumping sound like a pulse, beating.
Ted Lardner’s writing has recently appeared in Pleiades, Missouri Review, and other journals. He is the author of two chapbooks, Tornado (Kent State UP 2008), and We Practice For It (Sunken Garden Poetry Award/Tupelo 2014). He teaches at Cleveland State University.